This is a blog celebrating the 12th anniversary of my LiveJournal and what a fucking twat I was. So this is me, 12 years later, commenting on what a stupid, fucking, dude I was. Enjoy!
So I've been doing these updates every day that I had an entry 12 years ago. Obviously there's gonna be some breaks in the "action," but I had friends who were equally as lame, awful and awkward back then as I was who might stop by for a drink and give a glimpse into their life as an "exciting" teen. April is one of those people. She happened to have a couple of entries from November 30th, 2003. Play the video, nerd.
Subject:i want to fix.
Time:11:01 am.
Mood: determined.
im cold and i dont feel good.
i have to go to work and im not into that.
someone visit me.
yesterday i drank with robert at dans. raquel and daniel and john and kristen were there. i fell asleep and spilt alot of beer all over me and the couch.
me and cory went to the mall. i bought some socks. and i didnt get the nurses uniform. hah. ten dollars.
i got called into work. my check will be huggge. like 160 dollars. im fucking rich. kinda.
i hate that you dont feel it.
what can i do?
Time:7:57 pm.i saved it today. someone buy it for me. he cries like a sheep when he falls over. and he isnt soft and hes sad because noone will ever buy an 80 dollar teddy bear.
Correction: April was actually 16 during the time of this LiveJournal post. Not 15 like she said. Doesn't make the underage drinking much better, but whatever. Also, credit to Steve the Pug for his special appearance in this entry.
April can be found on instagram @arouech
Steve the Pug can be found on Facebook as Steve Angers
Hey! A new post! About love and life and meaning! Just kidding. It's a bunch of bullshit about my non-existent love life and decisions that had no consequences. Play the video, nerd.
Nov. 29th, 2003 | 04:30 am mood:optimistic music: Jibba jabba
Today was long but good. I learned quite a bit. I decided not to ask girl1 out because at practice, I just stopped liking her. Sitting there, just listening to music, I just lost all feeling for her, but I just shrugged it all off. Girl2 is looking on the up and up. Might be doing something with her. Kendall: You know who girl1 is but you're not getting too close to knowing girl2 is. I did one scene at practice then at noon, left and it took me 45 minutes to get home. Then Chris and I and my dad went to the saginaw rescue mission, and dropped off some clothes and stuff. We rented Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Tony Hawk Underground. THUG is so much fun. We went over to Kendall's where we talked to Kaitie (his sister) and his mom while we waited for Kevin, Kyle, Noel, and Andrew. We all talked there for awhile then went bowling. It was fun. We were changing eachother's names. Funny stuff. Then we went to taco bell and ate then ended up at kevin's at around 11 pm. Then we played Monopoly and I was kicking ass until they teamed up against me. And we're talking at 4:30 am. I think we're going to be up talking for awhile.
man, solo from the pet rock...
russ
p.s. crap Kendall knows I like his sister. crap
If only I'd known the implications of my actions from this LiveJournal post. Haha. Just kidding. Nothing fucking happened.
Thank god. This is a relatively boring post. There's bound to be plenty of these. It's no less uncomfortable for me, but still relatively boring. Play the video, nerd.
Nov. 28th, 2003 | 02:40 am mood: awake music: less than jake - my very own flag
Well now, I went out with the gang tonight. We saw Master in COmmand starring Russell Crowe and I knew it was going to suck and it did, 2 hours a waste of time. Going deal hunting with kevin and chris tomorrow at 8 am the play practice from 10-1, kevin and chris are going to the mall but i think I'm just going to stay home and clean. It's for the best. At play practice tomorrow, I think I might ask Girl1 out on a date for saturday night. What've I got to lose? Nothing at all actually. If she says no, at least I finally know where I stand with her. Things couldn't get more awkward than they already are. I don't think I'll ask Girl2 out for awhile, though. I need to spend a bit more time around her. Thanks kristin for all your advice. Can't wait to see Bad Santa with you next weekend. And go to the Anathallo show with you tuesday! Don't forget about either!
Part 2 of a Thanksgiving I'd rather not talk about from 12 years ago. Warning: I was a piece of shit and it was only my second post. Enjoy! Play the video, nerd.
Nov. 27th, 2003 | 08:04 pm mood:hopeful music: The Postal Service - Sleeping In
Really wierd dream last night. Well what I remember was this, my ex-grilfriend Katie was working at the airport as a flight attendant. She was sitting down and I gave her a hug. I told her I was sorry I hadn't talked to her in so long. She had a strange look on her face, then gave me plane tickets to where she was going. Just really strange. I think I dreamt it only because last night was the first time I really acknowledged her existence for about a year. Today (thanksgiving) was really cool and yet not. I haven't really accomplished anything all day. My mom won't let me go to sleep because I have play practice at 10 am tomorrow. Wanted to go out tonight, but everybody else's parents are letting them sleep. Talked to Kendall about hanging out but plans never panned out. Hopefully going to see Anathallo next tuesday. I still like this girl at school, but this more popular guy is going after her. She's given me classic signs that she likes me, but I'm usually wrong about that stuff. I know eventually I'll rationalize with myself by saying, "She's too good for you. She's just being nice. Why would she want a guy like you when she could have any guy she wants, especially that rich jewish kid." oops said too much. Ben can go to hell or whatever opposite of heaven Jews believe in. I like this other girl, but we went out once, but I doubt she feels the same as I do, just like all the other girls I liked. We'll just have to see how things develop. Girl1 is a lot less likely to go out with me than Girl2. Well, I'll probably see both of them tomorrow at practice. For now, I'm gone like a forgotten song blown away by the winds of change...
russ
I'm gonna go donate some money to a Jewish temple or something now to offset this post.
As far as first entries go...this one is going to be reasonably okay....I think? Well, yesterday afternoon was fun for awhile. I came home after taking Katy to her house after school, and my friend Chris was here from florida because his family is visiting the rest of their family for thanksgiving.
All three of us (Chris, Katy, And I) went to our friend Noel's where we watched tv and played super NES. It was fun.
Then I had plans to go hang out with Kristin at the mall. SO I left Noel's place and went to meet Kristin and Katy came with me so she could do some shopping. Kristin and I walked aroun the mall, into rainbow, wet seal, suncoast, sam goody (where i bought the Motion City Soundtrack CD), and Hot Topic. I like hanging out with her. Hanging out with a great, funny, outgoing, individual kind of girl like her is always fun. I'm glad she invited me along, too. Because I had church that night and Angela (ex girlfriend who i broke up with last sunday because she was always yelling at me and being mean to me. Even when things were her fault, I had to say I was sorry or else she wouldn't talk to me for a week. More on all this later.) was going to be there.
It started at seven and I got there at eight with Katy. Her and Angie are friends so Katy gave me a note from her that I didn't read until after church when I went beack over to Noel's. Church was fun though. Katy had a really fun time which is good because everyone needs at least a little God in their life.
Anyways, it was all fun. I talked to one of my ex-girlfriends for the first time in the longest. Granted is wasn't a one on one kinda thing, more or less like social interaction, but still it's progress. Played games. Talked to this girl Rachel who I used to be friends with, and I could see that friendship starting up again soon, too.
Angela was just ripping on me the entire night. When my friend Chris and I had to do a performance piece I heard her say, "Oh God, Russell's in this. I'm not watching." So fast forward, they left early. 11 rolled around and we (chris and me) went over to Noel's where Kevin, Kendall, Josh, Kyle and Noel were already. We watched Lord of the Rings: Two Towers and played video games. I read Angela's note and it was talking about how much she loved me and wanted to be friends. All I could think was how much that sounded cool but it was complete bull crap. Oh well.
Talked to my friend Kailyn on the phone last night too. I got this livejournal. Thanks for the livejournal code, Pumpkin, whoever you are. I plan to make it a lot better looking but probably not 'til monday at school where the computers are a heck of a lot better. So for now....I'm gone. Hope you liked the entry. Leave me a comment. Opinions are important to me.
Don't think...Feel,
Russ
Formatting may change in terms of videos as this goes on, but it may not just to keep it as painful and raw as possible.
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